Poem ~ Gray Skies

So, this is a poem I wrote a few years ago... Well about 7-8 years ago (??). Anywho, it's been a while, lol.  I wrote this poem as a form of therapy.  Yeah, something I went through with an ex and something I will NEVER go through again... 

Gray Skies

Days of thunder, 

skies of gray.

I wanted to run...

I wanted to get away.

Get away from everything.

All the lies, all the pain.

Everytime he hit me,

brought on all the rain.

The rain poured down on me,

making it hard to breathe.

Chilling me to the bone.

I just wanted to be free.

Free of all the hurt.

All the bruises, all the names.

Free of all the accusations

he kept throwing my way.

Accusing me of everything...

of lying and cheating.

He accused me every day

and every night there was a beating.

A beating so intense,

it took my breath away.

I didn't want to live

to see another day.

Another day of black,

another day of blue.

I wanted no more gray skies.

I was completely through...

Now what?

As far as I can remember, I've never met my father.  Might have when I was a new born baby but I wouldn't remember, obviously.  My whole life (almost 27 years) I've always wondered about him.  His personality.  His quirks.  What he's like.  What he looks like...

Growing up, I was always jealous of my friends who had a father in their lives.  A father teaching his son how to build things or a father over-protecting his daughter from boys.  I always wondered what it was like.  Sure, I had a step-father for many years.  He was a real piece of work *eye roll*.  I've never called him Dad.  Simply put, he made my life hell.  But, I won't get in to how horrible he was with me or my mother.  I'm just glad he's gone.  I've never called anyone Dad.

I woke up this morning and logged in to FaceBook and had a friend request.  Well, it was my real father.  I didn't know what to think or what to do.  I thought about it for a while and accepted his request to be friends.  He then wrote to me.  When I saw his name in my inbox, I started shaking I was so nervous.  After I read what he wrote, I smiled.  It totally made my day :)

There's so much I want to know about him.  What his life was like growing up.  All things good and bad.  Family from his side.  If I have more siblings.  Favorites and dislikes.  I don't even know where to start when it comes to asking him questions.  Sure, I want to know everything about him but I don't want to ask him all these questions and have him get annoyed, lol.  I don't even know how to have a father/daughter relationship... But, that's something I want to work on and try to do.  I'm so glad he took that huge step and asked to be friends.  Things have been rocky for me when it came to him but I feel like I can get pass that.  I want to know him and have him in my life.  I just hope it doesn't go back to how it used to be.

Well, I think it's time for me to get off here.  I'm tired and ready for bed.  Goodnight stars, goodnight moon, goodnight world :)    

Halloween and Mr. Sticky... Oh my!

I woke up this morning with every intention of cleaning the house and guess what?  I actually got it done!  Last week, I bought myself a Mr. Sticky and I must say... I LOVE HIM!  He is awesome for dusting and picking up dog hair off the furniture and clothes.  I would recommend Mr. Sticky to anyone who has pets and has to deal with pet hair :)  Not trying to sell it to anyone for I don't get a profit but just wanted to let people know how cool he is :)  Any-who, I used my Mr. Sticky today and cleaned the house.  The only thing I didn't do was mop my floors.  Kinda pointless when the dogs track in dirt and mud with wet seasons... I am also doing laundry...  I kinda feel like a cleaning fairy today, lol.

Now on to Halloween.  Who loves halloween?  I know I do!!  I wanted to possibly dress up as Lady Gaga or a psycho witch and enter myself into a costume contest but I doubt it will happen.  My man doesn't like to get dressed up on Halloween or to go to bars.  But, that's a good thing 'cause we save money by staying home :)  Although, going out every now and then would be nice too :)  One of these years I'll convince him to get into the Spooky Spirit!  (aside from jumping out from behind doors to scare the living crap out of me) :)

I recently read something about laws on trick-or-treating age?  How teens are too old?  What are your takes on this?  I honestly can't remember the last time I went trick-or-treating but I do know it was YEARS ago.  I feel that any kid, regardless of age, should be able to partake in the activity as long as they are wearing a costume.  Why take their childhood away?  Once they are out of high school then I feel they are too old to trick-or-treat because that's the first major step into adult hood.  But as long as they are still in school then why not?  I hate how people feel the need to change things all the time and to make unnecessary laws for stupid things like this.

Feel free to leave comments :)  I promise I won't bite your head off if your opinion is different from mine. *wink*  Have a fantabulous day everyone!

Sixteen Tons | Tennessee Ernie Ford

 

Some people say a man is made outta mud
A poor man's made outta muscle and blood
Muscle and blood and skin and bones
A mind that's a-weak and a back that's strong

You load sixteen tons, what do you get
Another day older and deeper in debt
Saint Peter don't you call me 'cause I can't go
I owe my soul to the company store

I was born one mornin' when the sun didn't shine
I picked up my shovel and I walked to the mine
I loaded sixteen tons of number nine coal
And the straw boss said "Well, a-bless my soul"

You load sixteen tons, what do you get
Another day older and deeper in debt
Saint Peter don't you call me 'cause I can't go
I owe my soul to the company store

I was born one mornin', it was drizzlin' rain
Fightin' and trouble are my middle name
I was raised in the canebrake by an ol' mama lion
Cain't no-a high-toned woman make me walk the line

You load sixteen tons, what do you get
Another day older and deeper in debt
Saint Peter don't you call me 'cause I can't go
I owe my soul to the company store

If you see me comin', better step aside
A lotta men didn't, a lotta men died
One fist of iron, the other of steel
If the right one don't a-get you
Then the left one will

You load sixteen tons, what do you get
Another day older and deeper in debt
Saint Peter don't you call me 'cause I can't go
I owe my soul to the company store

Interesting...

So, that's kinda freaky!  Yep, that is me... Zombie form!

Turn yourself into a zombie!  

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Pizza and Pinochle

Had a great time today!  Had pizza with the family and played pinochle.  My boyfriend won the game but it's all good.  He can still sleep in the bed, lol.  Sat in the hot tub as well to relax my old bones :)  Or so I feel like my bones are getting old.  I'm going to be 27 soon... Man, time fly's by fast after you hit 18!  Crazy...

Amazing Race is on tonight.  Got the DVR set for it... Same with Desperate Housewives and ITR's Deadliest Road (go Lisa Kelly!).  My three favorite Sunday night shows :)  Lame, I know but I like them.  I also watch Survivor, Two and a Half Men and Big Bang Theory.  I love Sheldon (Jim Parsons)!!!  He cracks me up!  Those are about the only shows I like... Television drains the brain of knowledge... Well, the shows I watch do, lol.  There are the shows that actually learn people but I sometimes find them to be boring... Who woulda thunk it?

Yeah, this was a pretty boring post... I've even bored myself with it and I'm easy to entertain, lol.  So, I will say goodnight and think of something better to write about for tomorrow as I lay in bed, tossing and turning and thinking...  Goodnight all :)

My Mother

Good morning all!

So, today is my mother's birthday!  Yay!  Time to celebrate her on her day.  Not just for her birthday either but for many reasons.  She is the best mother EVER.  I know a lot of you would argue me on that but we all have our opinions, lol.  She's been through so much in her life... Good and bad.  But, she's always held her head high and got through everything while helping my brother and I in any way she can.  She truly is the best mom I could ask for :)  Plus, she's put up with me in my wilder days and she STILL loves me after all I've put her through.  I am truly sorry for all I've put her through and I hope she gets nothing but happiness in life because she deserves it all!  I love her very much and would be totally lost without her.  Happy Birthday Mom!!  Love ya!

I woke up this morning around 7:30 am and went to the kitchen to make my pot of coffee.  Then, I stepped outside and had a smoke (bad habit, I know).  When I came in, my coffee was done... Or should I say, my hot water was done!  I forgot to add COFFEE to my COFFEE pot!  So, I had to remake my pot of coffee.  Wow, talk about a moment.  That's the first time I've ever done that, lol.

After my little coffee mishap, I made my guy waffles and guess what?  They were perfect! I was proud of myself, lol.

Alright, gotta go and get things done before going over to my mother's house today.  Have a great day everyone :)

Our awesome dogs!

Pictures of our dogs :)

This here is Ian... German shepard/yellow lab mix... Very smart for a blond dog, lol :)

And this one is Zoey... Red/blue heeler mix... Very controlling and thinks WE are HER pets!

Zoey also controls Ian by sitting on him and keeping him pinned, lol.


We love our dogs... Even with their quirky personalities :)

R. Lee Ermey GEICO Commercial - Therapist Sarge

Best Commercial so far!  Love it!

Diego's Restaurant

My awesome boyfriend took me to Diego's for dinner last night.  Talk about amazing food!  I found my new favorite restaurant :)  I ordered the Seafood Penne Pasta... Shrimp, halibut, scallops and lobster with a garlic sauce... It was to die for!  The only downfall is the price.  It's what I would call a 'high-class' restaurant.  But, I guess for the price, the food was well worth it, lol.

I was so excited to go there (my first time there) that I even curled my hair.  The curl didn't last the whole time though, lol.  But, it was nice to get dressed up and be all girly like :)  I don't do that very often.  I'm more of a down-and-dirty kinda girl.  Now I'm getting off track.  Back to the dinner.  We met up with another couple there and enjoyed great food and company.  I had two beers with dinner and boy howdy... Those two beers seemed to make me a little buzzed!  TWO!  That's crazy right there, lol.  I don't know what was up with that but when we got home, I sat on the couch with my guy and watched a little T.V..  Next thing I know, I wake up just in time for him to say he's ready for bed, lol.  Don't know when I fell asleep but we got home around 7:30pm.  I'm just getting too old these days... Early to bed, early to rise is my motto now when I used to be a night owl and sleep all morning... Blasted age is getting the best of me and I don't like it.

Have a great day all!  :)

First of many...

Please bare with me as my grammar and all that jazz is not the best and I often make mistakes :)  Now, with that said...

Howdy all!  I sure hope I don't bore you with what I decide to talk about in my blog.  But, then again, I can't please everyone.  I can say that my blog will be about pretty much everything.  From music to politics to my days events to whatever, lol.  I love to write and to share my opinions.  Who doesn't like to share their opinion?  Anywho, feel free to comment and leave your opinion.  I'm not perfect (nobody is) and I'm not one to judge people (too often).  I consider myself to be a nice person who sometimes has a very short fuse.  In other words, if someone pisses me off then they will know about it :)  I think it's great therapy :)

On to something else...
I've been watching my local news this morning and they were talking about Lindsey Lohan and her 'court issues'.  Seriously?  Can't you find some actual NEWS to talk about and not stupid celebrity gossip?  Even Fox News talks about her more then they talk about important events going on.  But apparently people actually care about L.L enough for Fox News to discuss her... What ever happened to our soldiers?  Can't we talk about them instead of her?  Our soldiers risk their lives everyday to help every single one of us.  They are true heros in my book and I will never forget 9/11 and all our fallen heros.  They deserve more respect then we give them.  Respect our Troops!  Our firefighters and our policemen!

Well, time for me to go and do some laundry :)  Have a great day all!