20 Things

I was thinking I would do a ~20 things about me for my 20th post~ post :)

1.  I am terrified of spiders... Any kind, any size.  I'm a complete girly-girl when it comes to spiders... I run away screaming like a baby, lol.  The only good spider is a dead spider!


2.  I have broke 3 bones in my 26 years.  In order ~ My left collar bone as a toddler when my cousin fell on me (I still love you Lacie!).  My right collar bone while playing football (tripped over my own feet trying to impress a boy) at age 11 (I think).  Last, my left wrist by bouncing off another cousins trampoline at 13 or 14 years old (Yes, I still love you too, Amber!).


3.  I was home-schooled  (which may explain my grammar/english writing skills, lol).  However, I did graduate and I received my High School Diploma with the home-schooling :)

4.  I like to write (obviously!) about anything.  Poems, short stories, letters to friends and family...

5.  I have a stupid fear of driving that controls my freedom!  I get panic attacks behind the wheel.  Makes me feel like a royal dumbass!

6.  I'm a firm believer in "Eye for an Eye" when it comes to prison inmates but that is a whole different blog post.  I have a lot to say about that...

7.  I hate having nail polish on my fingers but feel naked when my toes are without nail polish.  Is that weird?

8.  I can pop my hips in and out of joint while standing.  It sure grosses people out to see that, lol.  My hips were dislocated when I was born (my mother had to double up the diapers to keep my hips in socket if that makes any sense)...

9.  I was in an abusive relationship for 3 years.  I hate the guy for how he was but I'm thankful to him for making me stronger and wiser.

10.  I'm addicted to coffee but I don't like Starbucks or Dutch Brothers.  I prefer my local Full Throttle Java Hut (located at both ends of town for your convenience)  :)  Plus, the girls there rock!

11.  I once got really drunk and did amateur night at a strip club.  I will NEVER drink that much EVER again, lol.  I was also offered a job by the club manager... I drunkenly, yet politely, declined, lol.

12.  I'm extremely shy in person but will tell my life story online (go figure).

13.  I went through a depressed stage in life and tried to end it.  I'm so over that now though and I love, love, love my life the way it is.  Yeah, things could be better but I'll take it for what it is :)  I have family, friends and a boyfriend who all love me and accept me for who I am and I love them all for that and their support :)

14.  I absolutely HATE cooking but I do it anyways for my boyfriend because he loves when I cook for him (probably because he's taught me how to cook... My mother tried but I never listened because SHE always cooked) and his appreciation makes me feel good.

15.  I've never met my real father but here recently, he contacted me through FaceBook.  I'm glad he did and I want to know everything about him and meet him someday.  I have so many questions for him... I feel... Well, I don't know how I feel yet.  Only time will tell...

16.  I don't plan on ever getting married.  I would wear an engagement ring but never get married, lol.  I would stay engaged forever.  I don't believe in having a piece of paper to prove how much I love someone.  Besides, it's much cheaper to get rid of a boyfriend then it is to get rid of a husband, lol.  No divorce :)  Just take your shit and go!

17.  I don't plan on ever having kids either.  Don't get me wrong, I love kids I just don't want any of my own.  Yeah, yeah... They're cute and squishy and do adorable things but... I'll pass.  But, if I ever did end up pregnant, I would love my baby more then anything else in life :)

18.  I sang karaoke once with a friend at a bar that was full of people.  That was another drunk moment of mine.  It was horrible, lol.  We sang, or butchered would be correct, 'Rockstar' by Nickelback :)

19.  I love nuts by themselves... Salted, honey roasted, whatever but I hate foods that have nuts cooked in it or topped with nuts.  Candy bars with nuts in them?  I don't like them... Yuck!

20.  I hate getting flowers as a gift (especially from a boyfriend).  It may be a nice gesture and all but get me something that is going to last... Not something that is going to die soon...

Now what?

As far as I can remember, I've never met my father.  Might have when I was a new born baby but I wouldn't remember, obviously.  My whole life (almost 27 years) I've always wondered about him.  His personality.  His quirks.  What he's like.  What he looks like...

Growing up, I was always jealous of my friends who had a father in their lives.  A father teaching his son how to build things or a father over-protecting his daughter from boys.  I always wondered what it was like.  Sure, I had a step-father for many years.  He was a real piece of work *eye roll*.  I've never called him Dad.  Simply put, he made my life hell.  But, I won't get in to how horrible he was with me or my mother.  I'm just glad he's gone.  I've never called anyone Dad.

I woke up this morning and logged in to FaceBook and had a friend request.  Well, it was my real father.  I didn't know what to think or what to do.  I thought about it for a while and accepted his request to be friends.  He then wrote to me.  When I saw his name in my inbox, I started shaking I was so nervous.  After I read what he wrote, I smiled.  It totally made my day :)

There's so much I want to know about him.  What his life was like growing up.  All things good and bad.  Family from his side.  If I have more siblings.  Favorites and dislikes.  I don't even know where to start when it comes to asking him questions.  Sure, I want to know everything about him but I don't want to ask him all these questions and have him get annoyed, lol.  I don't even know how to have a father/daughter relationship... But, that's something I want to work on and try to do.  I'm so glad he took that huge step and asked to be friends.  Things have been rocky for me when it came to him but I feel like I can get pass that.  I want to know him and have him in my life.  I just hope it doesn't go back to how it used to be.

Well, I think it's time for me to get off here.  I'm tired and ready for bed.  Goodnight stars, goodnight moon, goodnight world :)